Here they are…the lock washers!! Any ideas of what these little gems are going to be used for?! More to come later today or tomorrow! We are busy busy in these parts!!
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Archive for August, 2008
Aug
29
2008
Flashback Friday!
Lately is has occurred to me that we have VERY few studio pictures sitting around. Well, to be perfectly honest, we have very few photos sitting around period because I am just not one for clutter. (Click here to see our photo wall and a peek into our family room!!) But of those we do have, we only have two that were taken at a typical studio. These two pictures sit on the table in our entryway and make me smile every single time I see them!!
This is Huntler around his third Halloween. He was 25 months old (October 2006)…the same age that Gentry is now. I can barely remember him being so little and it wasn’t even all that long ago. I REALLY can’t believe that I had a 3 month old when he was that age either!!
Anyway, this is one of the cutest little costumes ever! It was a real bummer because he was sick that Halloween and our $60 costume just got boxed back up, but there is no price that can be put on this sweet little face in my mind!!
Now for the sasafrass! This was taken in April of 2007…her nine month photos. The last time we have been in a formal studio!! I LOVE this shot! This is the ONLY good one out of the entire session, but man is it good!! She looks like a little doll!!
So while I am sharing I’ll share a few more from these same two sessions!!
This one was taken at the same time as the monkey costume shot!
And this one just cracks me up. Gentry was such a chub!!
So, that is it on the picture front but I have a couple of places to send you to check things out. First of all, I LOVE the style of this photographer…Skye Johansen. Her editing style is right up my alley! She does GREAT work! So I was checking in on her a couple of days ago and what do my little eyes see? She had just done a photo shoot for a baby named Gentry! Of course it caught my attention because it is certainly not a common name! Check her out…she will inspire you!
And since I was talking about photography studios above and also mentioned that it wasn’t really my style the other day, I could SO handle a studio like this one!! WOW is all I can say!! I made Chris look at it and he was pretty impressed too!
So…then we did what we haven’t done in FOREVER last night. We laid in bed and talked about the future. You know…what kind of house we want when we move home, where we want to live, where our home office will be placed (off of the bedroom because I HATE where our current office is!), and of course a fun little studio for me!! Ahhh my mind is reeling!
Way back in the beginning of our relationship we used to talk about this stuff ALL the time. These days we are doing good to talk about what we need from the grocery store. It isn’t that we don’t communicate, because we do, but it just isn’t the same as it was way back when! So, both of the kids were in bed. The TV was off (an extreme rarity!), the computer was off (also an extreme rarity!), the iPhone was charging and the laptop was still in Chris’ bag. The shade was up and SPECTACULAR lightning was lighting up the night sky and we just talked.
I wish our little chat would have somehow produced the magic answer to when exactly it is we get to move home, but it is still fun to think about our house and our future!
And on that note I better get to work!! The kids and I hit up a REALLY fun little bead shop this morning (yes, I took my two small children into a place PACKED with beads galore – doesn’t everyone?!!), dined on a FABULOUS lunch of chicken nuggets and fries while Huntler played in the McDonald’s playplace and then we even stopped in and got Huntler’s hair cut! We have had one busy day!!
Have a fabulous holiday weekend!!
Aug
29
2008
Meet Papa Randy
Hello blogworld…meet my dad. According to Huntler, this is Papa Randy standing proud beside his teacup…complete with sunglasses and a newspaper!! For the record….this looks nothing like my dad and thank goodness he has enough fashion sense not to pull his pants up above his belly button!!
Last night Chris and I were in the kitchen getting dinner while the kids were upstairs playing Little People (and just so you know…I have some weird obsession with Little People and we have pretty much the entire village!). The huge tub of kitchen stuff was also spilled out across the floor…needless to say it was a WRECK! Anyway, as I got to the top of the stairs Huntler called for me to come look at his teacups.
The little fella had taken teacups and saucers from the kitchen set and loaded Little People into them and recreated the teacup ride from Disneyland! Now that takes some creativity!!! It was SOOOO darn cute I wanted to cry!!
Anyway, we only have a limited number of teacups so when it came time to load Papa into his cup, he had to get resourceful! Poor Papa could definitely not see out the sides of his ride!!
Here is just some random guy…at one point Huntler said it was Daddy but then changed his mind!! Thank goodness…Daddy is much better looking than that!!
I have pictures loaded into Photobucket for Flashback Friday already but I wanted to share this instead! If I can get some time while Gentry is napping this afternoon I’ll try to post those then!
Aug
28
2008
Even Though…
Even though we must enter every single cent we spend and categorize it in Quicken, I still love this man with all of my heart. I just happen to despise Quicken!!
Aug
27
2008
Dreams, Discoveries and A Little Bit of Random…
Oh friends! As I begin to type this my mind is in a million different places…and since I can’t seem to decide where to start, I guess I’ll let my fingers do the talking and I’ll just follow along!
It is no secret that I LOVE photography. LOVE it. The challenges, the triumphs, but most importantly the moments. The little moments forever frozen in time, forever etched on my heart and stored in my mind. I can pick any random album saved on our computer and 99% of the time I can remember the day those images were taken like it was yesterday. That is what I love. No, not all of my pictures are fabulous works of art (I only share the good ones!!), but you see, they are memories. Sweet, cherished, forever mine…memories.
As I sift through images, some more recent than others, I am reminded once again of what is truly important in life. It isn’t having a fancy house or name brand clothing. It is so, so much more basic than that…it is simply living in and loving every moment we are given. And I am so blessed to have captured many of these moments forever…
The fleeting expressions frozen in a photo taking us back to a day and time when life was simple. The ornery smirk reminding us of an innocence that passes all too quickly. The grubby bare feet splashing carelessly in puddles. The crocodile tears streaming down the face of a heartbroken toddler. The sheer amazement that THE Polar Express is coming to pick us up and take us all the way to the North Pole. These are the moments that define us…these are the moments that define who I am and how far I have come. These are the moments that bring tears to my face.
So, I got a little deep on ya, hunh?! I wasn’t really meaning to go that direction, but I also happen to love to write so that side of me slips out from time to time!! Anyway, I guess what I am trying to say is that as I have spent the last couple of weeks focusing pretty much on Etsy creations in my free time, I have missed taking pictures…really missed it. I think that in and of itself says something. And although I love to create and be inspired with crafty fun, I also love to create and inspire others with my pictures. Those once in a lifetime images of my children that bring tears to my eyes because they are so real…that is a gift I would love to give others. The priceless gift of a child captured in his element.
So, as I continue forth with my Etsy shop, I am going to relax (something I do NOT do well!) and have FUN with it! That was the whole reason I started it in the first place…but I have to be honest that lately I have been a little stressed out by the whole idea. And it is simply not worth losing sleep over and be stressed out by. I am going to create what I can and when I can, but I think an equally imporant use of that free time is to immerse myself in everything I possibly can to learn as much as I can and pursue my love of photography on a different level…on a more professional level. No…I am not opening up a studio next month or anything like that (I don’t think the whole studio thing is really me anyway, I prefer the more laid back approach!), but I am going to see where this passion takes me. So wish me luck!!
WHEW!! So, on a much lighter note, I have lots more to share!!
Sweet Michelle tagged me as one of her favorite blogs to read! How fun is that?!! Wanna know a little secret – I love her blog too! She is such a creative soul and a sweet girl!! Too bad she lives in Tennessee!!
As a recipient of the this fun little award I am supposed to now choose SEVEN blogs and share the love!! And while I definitely check more than seven blogs a day, I am a lurker on most of them and would probably scare the people silly if I tagged them!! So, instead, I am sending you to Michelle’s Etsy shop and telling you have a little look-see at her creativity!! Maybe you’ll find something you just can’t live without!! (I am personally LOVING this little owl card…but it sold already!!)
Okay…so Monday we had one heck of a dust storm in these parts! I was upstairs and noticed that it was getting really dark really fast so I started checking out the windows. I looked out our bedroom window and could tell that we were about to get nailed by a dust storm!! So I did what any picture taking crazy girl does, I grabbed my camera and ran out on the patio!!
(I will warn you that these are all straight out of the camera except the one of Gentry standing up…I am not much into landscape or “pests” photography {read on} and can’t bring myself to spend time editing them!!)
Here is that shot…(See that little hint of bright blue peeping through?!)
Although it looks dark and ominous like a regular storm could, there is just something about a cloud full of dirt and dust that is a little different than your regular old storm cloud. Anyway, just minutes (literally) after I came in the palm trees were swaying in the wind and pool toys were floating on the water! Glad I got my beloved camera out of harms way!! (Don’t worry…the kids were safe. Each one was standing on a chair, drink in hand, watching out my bedroom window!! I am telling ya…our world is pretty boring!!) So, these next shots are from out of my bedroom window and taken through the glass.
See all of that dirt and dust?!! YUCK!! And although it isn’t always flying through the air like that, it is always in the air nonetheless. The lack of rain here and the sandy soil are perfect conditions for dust everywhere!!
We got a whopping .09 of rain out of this…nine HUNDREDTHS is all!
And as you can see, there is still construction going on back there!! Two houses are done and they are working on three or four more just to the left of where the picture ends. Won’t be long until they are building right behind us!!
I took this one while Huntler was at school yesterday. Gentry and I ran errands and when we got home I was taking some trash to the curb and she started dancing around in the puddle we got with our little smidge of rain!! Isn’t she just a cutie pie?!!
Now…here is reason #147 why I do NOT like living in the desert.
See that??? It may look like just a little hole to you…but a rodent lives in there. YUCK! We were just outside on Sunday and that hole most definitely was NOT there, so the little critter has been really busy!! And it gets better…I was back on the porch today and the hole is even bigger than it was when I snapped this yesterday…so he has been grubbing away. And yes…I said on my front porch. This hole is like four steps away from our door. I have this huge fear that I am going to open the door and the little varmint is going to get scared and run in.
We don’t even know what these things are…little ground squirrel – chipmunk – prairie dog – sun worshipping things is all we know!! We had one take up residency in roughly the same place right after we moved in, but once we had our landscaping done, he was gone.
And I just remembered that we have a picture of one of these things from just a couple of days after we got here. Yes…on our grill. Lovely. Ugh…I get squeamish just thinking about them!! I DESPISE rodents. I don’t love snakes by any stretch of the imagination, but I am not nearly as grossed out by them as I am by these things! I think I am definitely more scared of snakes though!!
So that is reason #147 why I don’t like living out here. Here is reason #148.
A bat. A dead bat 10 steps from the hole with the critter. Yeah…BOTH discovered within 2 minutes of each other yesterday. Not a good day, my friends, NOT a good day!! We knew we had bats “around” last summer but haven’t seen a single one all year. I was getting a little suspicious though because there is this little pile of “stuff” which I presume to be bat droppings on the driveway directly underneath this awning where an entire family could easily roost. Nice. I am now pretty darn sure that those are bat droppings and this little fella wasn’t strong enough to weather the storm we had the other day. Either that or he just flew into the side of the house! Either way, it is a tiny but disgusting nevertheless.
After “happening” upon both of these finds yesterday morning I came in and woke Chris up! (He was sleeping because he worked the entire night before.) He wasn’t nearly as alarmed by any of this as I was!!
And like mother, like daughter. It might be repulsive but we are going to make ourselves look at it anyway!! She even showed Daddy and Huntler where he was!! That’s my girl!!
And while on the subject of all things disgusting.
Reason #149
Huge, crunchy, FLYING, beetles. I think these are called Palo Verde Borer Beetles. We saw TONS of these things last summer (they come out in July), but I have only seen one this summer so far and he was dead!! Chris has seen more, but he is outside more than I am, so that makes sense!!
And I saved the best for last.
Reason #150
The Desert Hairy Scorpion. We caught this last summer. I remember that day VIVIDLY. Chris had just left for work and the kids and I were at the kitchen table eating waffles. He hadn’t been gone 30 seconds and was back home. “You HAVE to see this. Get your shoes.” So, as horrible as I looked in my PJ’s and crazy bed head (and as ridiculous as a family of four looks walking around staring at the ground at 7:30 in the morning!!!), we trekked across the street to the neighbors house where this scorpion was crawling through the rocks. Chris had seen it crossing the street and came back to get the camera and then had the insane idea to capture it!
We saw one more like this in our front yard last year…just a couple of weeks after we caught this one. Chris ran over it with the mower and he was mowing in flip flops. Scary. And then we (well, Chris) found a dead one in the back yard. Oh…and then there is the tiny dead one I found in the kitchen. Thank goodness it was dead because supposedly the smaller ones have a worse sting. It was right after we moved in. I remember that I was crawling around on the kitchen tile sweeping up all the crumbs because my new friend Mistie and her family were coming over for dinner. I was sad, homesick and then absolutely appalled to find this scorpion IN OUR HOUSE! I remember turning off the sweeper and saying to Chris…”Man, that is one mean looking bug.” We didn’t know for sure if it was dead so we scooped it onto a paper plate and examined it. Please tell me we aren’t the only ones who do strange things like this?!!! Anyway, it was obvious then it was a scorpion…but it was MUCH MUCH smaller and more translucent. I cried. I had to go to the store and I remember blaring “Don’t Forget to Remember Me” by Carrie Underwoo
d on the radio and crying.
d on the radio and crying.
So…on the scorpion front. We haven’t seen a single one all summer! We have the exterminators come every other month but they have told us repeatedly that unless our neighbors have regular pest control come that it doesn’t do much good. And the fact that we live 150 feet from a canal and total desert doesn’t help either! Just gotta watch out for sure!!
Rattlesnakes are the other biggie…we saw a baby one last fall but that is it so far. But where there are babies, there are mamas!
And HOLY COW this has turned into the longest post ever!! You may not hear from me tomorrow since I posted three weeks worth of material in this one entry!!
Have a great Wednesday!!
Aug
27
2008
Two Little Tidbits Tuesday
WHEW! I about forgot this again this week! I am flying around like a crazy girl right now so I am going to keep it REALLY short, but I hope to post a longer entry tonight or tomorrow night.
- I do NOT speed. I will go about 4 miles over on the highway and sometimes 4 over in town, but that is it. I am sure I have driven many a driver crazy, but I don’t want to get pulled over!!
- I bought cotter pins and lock washers today. Yeah…do YOU know what those are?!!! I am pretty darn sure they haven’t been used all that often for the purposes I have in mind…stay tuned and you’ll get a little sneak peek in the next few days!!
Okie doke! I have to get!!
Aug
25
2008
If Only…
If only I had the budget to pull off a party like THIS one!! Holy cow!!! Seriously, seriously cute stuff!! (If you click on the link there is a video and a page full of fun details!!)
Most of you know by now that I am a Bachelor junkie…I am absolutely 110% addicted to the show!! So, it should come as no surprise to know that I watched the extravagant wedding ceremony of Ryan and Trista (a bachelorette who found her true love) and that I waited with bated breath to find out what they named their first baby. I just love them…they are so cute and so normal, ya know?!! So when Lisa asked me if I had picked up the most recent issue of Life and Style magazine to check out the details on little Max Sutter’s first birthday, I was shocked to know that I had completely missed out on this little piece of celebrity gossip!! (In case you are totally confused and not a fan of the show, Trista met Ryan on the show, married him in a huge, over the top televised ceremony and then they had their first baby a year ago…that is baby Max.)
So…now on to the details of the party. A few of you know that I was originally planning a Candyland themed party for Gentry this year but then decided to go with the cupcake theme. Since I plan WAY WAY WAY ahead, I had actually already purchased the favor buckets and a few of the favors for the Candyland bash before changing my mind. Those are now stashed away and I am thinking Candyland will be the theme for her third birthday!! Did I just type that…her THIRD birthday??? Oh my, I am SOOO not even going there right now!!
The invite…
So I clicked around and looked these favors up online!! The lunch boxes ALONE are $36. YIKES!! And these were custom made and have the plates and napkins too!! Maybe since they teamed up with some companies they didn’t have to pay the full price?!
Ok…spacing issues but the picture below this one is something I TOTALLY envision at a Candyland bash!!! How fun and happy is that?!!
Now tell me that doesn’t look like a FUN party?!! Every last detail is perfect!! The colors, the decor…all of it!!
Thanks to those of you with the suggestions for Huntler’s birthday invitations. I toyed with the idea of making them shaped like a ticket, but I tend to make everything FAR more complicated than it needs to be and am going with the train shaped invite! I am working on the “mock up” and will definitely share once I get it done!
And on a completely random note, look at this sweet little PINK coat from Old Navy!! A friend of mine told me that Old Navy was having a huge sale on Saturday so while we were out and about I thought I would run in and check it out. OH MY GOODNESS I have NEVER seen a line so long in my life…not even at Christmas! There were people standing single file clear to the back of the store!!! Rachel, if you stood in this line at seven months pregnant, you deserve an award…a BIG one!! Sorry friends, there were some great deals, and although I am one of these “instant gratification” type of people who likes to leave the store with my purchase in hand, I knew we weren’t going to be needing our $7 jeans for a few months so I left that chaos behind and came home and ordered online!! So I won’t have my stuff until later this week…but that is A-OK with me!!
Anyway, had I not been looking online I wouldn’t have come across this cute little coat!! Some of you are probably wondering why we need jeans and coats in the desert…but it does it cold!! And now that we have truly acclimated, I am thinking this year once the weather takes a turn, it will seem down right frigid to us!! So, jeans and coats are a must, even in the desert!!
Alright friends, Huntler and I are off to make some cupcakes while the sister continues to nap! I let him crack some eggs the other day and he LOVED it!! So I am going to let him be my little helper again today!!
Aug
24
2008
Lil’ Engineer…
So it is no huge secret that I was pulling for ANY birthday theme but trains. Anything else that one little almost four year old could dream up, I was okay with!! But one look at this guy in his little conductor hat (left over from his train bash when he turned two!!) and I wonder WHAT in the world I was thinking. Seriously. Cute. Boy. Love him to pieces!! And if he wants a train birthday party next month, then a fabulously fun train birthday party he will have!
I had this *brilliant* idea yesterday that we were going to stop at a train park while we were out running errands!! However, reality quickly set in and the thought of loading and unloading the kids in the 110 degree heat AND trekking around to get shots just was not at all appealing. So I decided to go with the next best thing and take Huntler out on the front porch and work with what we had!! This way we could wait until it wasn’t quite as hot (you know, just 107) and we could run inside if we were overheating!! (Anyone who knows me knows how much I HATE to sweat…I was sweating buckets to get these images!!)
I took over 100 shots and have quite a few I am in love with! I still have lots of editing to do, but wanted to go ahead and share these! Somehow or another I am going to have to pick one of the 38 remaining images (I deleted a ton) for his invitation!! I am still not quite sure how I am making that yet…I am HOPING to make it train shaped but we’ll see!!
Anyway, we are having a wonderful weekend! Chris spent the entire day with us yesterday! We ran errands and when we got home everyone napped but me! After that I took Huntler out for his little photo shoot and then we swam, ate pizza rolls on the pool deck, played Candyland, popped popcorn and watched a Ratatoulie. Yep…sounds fun, hunh?!! We didn’t even start the movie until 9:30 and needless to say I fell asleep and Chris put Gentry in her crib at some point, but what a FABULOUS day!!
Here are just a couple of images!!
Oh, and one other thing! You may have noticed I added a little “Twitter” section on the sidebar!! I have seen it on quite a few blogs and sites, but last week I noticed that Tonya added it to her blog and I thought it was fun to read about what she was up to at random times during the day. Needless to say, I thought it would be fun to let you all know what I was up to during random times too!! So, thanks Tonya!! I love this idea!!
And on that note I am off to work some more!!
Aug
22
2008
What A Difference a Day Makes!
Well, my friends, it is F*I*N*A*L*L*Y Friday!! Whew! I didn’t think I would make it to see the end of the this week, but I did and as I type this morning I am in a great mood! The kids and Chris are all still fast asleep and the sound of peace and quiet is quite nice!!
Chris got home around 6:00 last night which is far better than 7:00 and came bearing supper. Fastest way to make me forget my troubles is with some curly fries and a cherry turnover from Arby’s! Well, not really, but MY OH MY how I LOVE cherry turnovers and curly fries! And then I found myself doing what my parents used to do…
Our turnovers were in a separate bag on the table and the kids were oblivious. I was planning to wait until they were in bed to get mine out…you know, so I didn’t have to share!! But then Chris told Huntler to bring him the bag and the kids were instantly hooked! I remember a time or two going to Wichita with my parents (the biggest city close to my hometown) and my parents thinking my sis and I were asleep in the back and ordering turnovers for themselves! I had a little flashback last night as all this occurred!
Anyway, last night was better. Chris was home and we swam with the kids and just had a much better evening. Well, I didn’t swim because I freeze when the sun isn’t beating on me, but I sat on the side and watched and talked! So here is to hoping that today is better than yesterday and Chris doesn’t spend the entire weekend working!!
And while on the subject, I should probably say that I KNOW I don’t have it rough at all compared to a lot of people. I do realize that and for that I am grateful. It is just that I am not used to him being gone soooo much and it is hard to get used to that when it has never been that way before. Don’t get me wrong, he has always worked from home and spent way more than 40 hours in the office, but not nearly as many hours as he has spent the last few weeks.
So thanks sweet friends for all your kind words…comments and e-mails. I am amazed at how blogging has increased my circle of friends and what a connection I feel to so many of you! I am encouraged and inspired by my internet friends just as much as I am by my “real” friends. What a great world we live in to be able to connect with so many people in so many areas of the world. Just think for a second about how amazing that is!!
Ok…whew, I am chatty today! No distractions and the words are pouring out of me!!
So all week I have been diligently entering my name in giveaway after giveaway! Yeah, that’s right…LOTS and LOTS of giveaways!!
Julie over at On The Dot Creations is having OODLES of giveaways for her 6 month blogiversary! It really is a novel idea!! Anyway, all sorts of fun shops have donated goods and she is going to have a website randomly choose the winning entry (by number) for each item!
Sorry to be so late in sharing this with you, but you can still sign up!! Just click here to see the items at a glance and start with Monday…the deadline to enter those is tonight!! Be sure to read what she has you do to get entered! FUN!!
And another super fun giveaway is happening as well!! Julie blogged about it yesterday and I am adding to her competition! She loves picture taking as much as I do and wants this camera strap too!!
See how cute it is?! It could be yours…or mine…or Julie’s!! We all know how much I LOVE LOVE LOVE taking pictures!! Why not add a little style?!!
So read on to find out how you can enter this fabulous giveaway!! Hurry…the contest ends tonight!!
And now both my munchkins are awake and Chris is getting ready to leave. I guess I better get some chocolate milks fixed and clothes in the washer and get my day going!! And once again, if I owe you an e-mail, I’ll get to it today or over the weekend!!
Aug
21
2008
So I Had a Bad Day
More like a bad week to be quite honest…it just hasn’t been the best of weeks around here and it seems as though I am taking it out on all the wrong people. Good thing I have never professed to be perfect because I am certainly far from it and it has been quite apparent the last couple of days!! After a mini cry-fest last night while sitting at the dinner table watching the kids inhale their corn on the cob and yet another one in the parking lot of Huntler’s school this morning on the shoulder of my sweet friend Lindsey, I think I am better. Not to mention that I just unloaded on Chris while he was home at lunch and that always helps. As I said…I am far from perfect.
Some of you may have seen the post I added yesterday and then the short one I followed up with. I was in a cranky mood and as I typed the words I knew it wasn’t my normal self coming through, but I am human…I am who I am. I think what I think and I feel what I feel. I realize to most of you I am just some random person who takes tons of pictures and likes crafts, but there is so much more to me than that!! I guess for some that isn’t a stretch of the imagination, but I am sure others think that I am always this happy go lucky mom of two who has this perfect little story book life…
And since I am just getting started on this emotional outpour of mine, that is about the farthest from the truth as it gets!! Don’t get me wrong, I am blessed beyond measure and I KNOW that. I have two sweet, happy, healthy, beautiful kids who mean the world to me. I have a husband who would move mountains to make me happy if he could. We have a great house and a nice car (albeit a minivan!!). My kids’ closets are stuffed with more adorable clothes than they could possibly ever wear. But things aren’t what make you happy my friends…they don’t even come close.
We are incredibly fortunate to have what we have…but it comes at a cost. Without going into too much detail, Chris has his own business and it is HARD, HARD work. So many times I have had people say things to me like, “Wow, must be nice that he gets to take off whenever he wants.” Or, “Aren’t you lucky, he gets to set his own hours” or “Must be rough,” or other random things like that. If only they knew…if only.
It is so NOT like that. In fact, most of the time I honestly wish he worked a 9:00 to 5:00 job where he could go in for eight hours and check work at at the door on his way out. Our life would be so much different if he did. See, our days (especially lately, but most of the time anyway) consist of him going to work around 8:00 and coming home around 6:00. Then we eat, play with the kids, get them bathed and in bed and Chris pulls out his iPhone or his laptop and dives right back into work. Those are the good nights. On the not so good nights he comes home even later and then goes BACK to work once the kids are in bed and doesn’t come back home until 6:00 or 7:00 in the morning when he rests for a couple of hours and goes back to work for the day.
That is where we are now. Work, work, work. And while he is working to provide for us, it sure doesn’t make it any easier to deal with two small children who miss their daddy and just need some time with him. It doesn’t make the laundry more fun or the house easier to clean. It doesn’t make the days pass quickly or the seasons change. In fact, time stands still and the days drag on. And it most certainly doesn’t make it easier on me. I love my kids dearly, but sometimes I just need a break. And more importantly, sometimes I just need 100% of my husband’s time and attention…
I can’t tell you the last time we went on a trip and he didn’t spend a good portion of the time on his phone or laptop. Christmas, vacation, those rare occasions he does take off when we have friends or family visiting from out of town…we don’t get all of him. There is ALWAYS, ALWAYS something to do for work…always.
Not to make him the bad guy in this because I know without a shadow of a doubt he would MUCH rather be home with us and playing or swimming or doing just about anything else. I know that. Yet he is the one who gets the silent treatment when I have had enough. He is the one who gets to witness the not so fun side of me. And although I know in my heart he would rather be anywhere but work, it still doesn’t make it easier.
(Photo taken by Tonya a couple of weeks ago on our California trip.)
So honey, if you are reading this, I am sorry I haven’t been much fun to be around the last couple of days. I know you are working hard to take care of us, but we miss you and we need you. It is hard enough being away from all our friends and family back home and being away from you makes it even worse. In case you need to be reminded, I love you dearly and just need you to be here for me…you are the half that makes me whole and it is quite obvious that I am really not whole these days…I love you.
So…if you are wondering why I haven’t posted much this week or why I felt the need to take down my posts for fear of offending others with what I wrote yesterday, that is why. I’ve had a bad week…thank goodness it is almost over! Just one more day!!
Sorry to unload all of that on you all, but I am just keepin’ it real. I am not going to pretend that I don’t have bad days or meltdowns or any of that, because I do. This week it is all just hitting me at once. I am so sick and tired of this heat I could scream. I am super homesick and really bummed that we aren’t going back next month. Chris is busy with work and I am just flat worn out (emotionally) from all of it.
So…there you have it!!!
On a much lighter note, I had a fun morning with a new friend and learned a new craft!! We drank lemonade and chatted while working away and I enjoyed every second of it! So Danielle, if you are reading this, thanks for spending the morning with us and teaching me something new!!