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Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn’t worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn’t want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn’t know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .

Thank you Huntler and Gentry for being the best, sweetest little ones a mama could ever dream of! I love you two more than you can even begin to fathom and what you each bring to my life is simply immeasurable. Thanks for making me smile when I really want to cry. Thanks for reminding me of what is truly important in life. Thanks for giving me the strength to carry on out here, a million miles from where my heart longs to be,  on the days I really need it. Although I am the mom, you two have taught me more about myself and life than I can even begin to put into words. For that I thank you. {Here is the link to my post on Mother’s Day last year!}

And so I want to wish my own mom a wonderful, wonderful day. Thank you for listening to me whine, gripe and complain about life in the desert EVERY SINGLE DAY. Thanks for making me feel that despite the miles, it is all going to be okay. Thanks for letting me call to share my ups and downs, my failures and successes. Thanks for the love and thanks for the support. Thank you for being you. Happy Mother’s Day!

Filed under my-lil-lollies, by Bethany